lara's hype eng

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  700. Specific Density 13.08.2026

  700. Specific Density from lara's hype eng vol. AR. Web player, likes, and session sync: https://lare.m-d-r-n.com/play/700 Telegram post: https://telegram.me/lara_just_in_case/769 Lyrics: [Verse 1] Post seven hundred and I'm still here City running loud, I'm running the math How many stimuli per unit of time Before you lose the thread, before you lose the path [Verse 2] Phone stays on, I just turn it low World keeps producing, I keep my dose There's a threshold — specific, exact I've memorised it, I keep it close [Chorus] Silence isn't absence It's the right concentration Stimuli per unit of time Silence Silence [Bridge] Seven hundred in and I still know What I need and how much Not more [Chorus] Silence isn't absence It's the right concentration Stimuli per unit of time Silence Silence
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  698. Session Ten 19.09.2026

  698. Session Ten from lara's hype eng vol. AR. Web player, likes, and session sync: https://lare.m-d-r-n.com/play/698 Telegram post: https://telegram.me/lara_just_in_case/797 Lyrics: [Verse 1] Session ten. Half an hour. Online. Seven-year-old, French, and a shaky wifi line. Something shifted — I can't say what or how. It just shifted. Good enough for now. The problem is I'm very tired of talking. Any language. All of them. Just. All of them. [Chorus] One day a week — French only. In theory. We'll see what sticks by next summer. We'll see. [Verse 2] I need to figure out — gently, non-traumatically — how to send her for two weeks to the second homeland. Native speakers. Immersion. Practice. Sounds like a plan. Sounds like a dream. Proud mom moment, for the record. For balance. The effect is starting to take shape. I'm exhausted from speaking. But something shifted. [Chorus] One day a week — French only. In theory. We'll see what sticks by next summer. We'll see. [Outro] We'll see.
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  697. Life Support System 19.09.2026

  697. Life Support System from lara's hype eng vol. AR. Web player, likes, and session sync: https://lare.m-d-r-n.com/play/697 Telegram post: https://telegram.me/lara_just_in_case/796 Lyrics: [Verse 1] Saturday 8:20 I surface from the ice Somebody hit play and I'm running on no choice Feed them, walk them, homework, birthday party School group chat, new shoes, after-school karate By 12:20 I look inward for the first time Four hours of Russian school — that's my window, that's my lifeline Half a working day but the intensity's insane So the only thing I manage is to go and lie down again [Chorus] I am a mechanical life support system For the offspring and the bureaucratic order My own life happens in stolen little fragments After hours, superhuman, barely holding Life support system [Verse 2] Other people say they love it, say they find themselves in this Self-actualized at bedtime, find the meaning in the midst I feel like I'm indentured, like I'm running someone's grid But I keep updating the schedule like I always did I would love to shift my attitude Radically change the facts — that's not an option I can choose Something isn't working Something isn't working [Chorus] I am a mechanical life support system For the offspring and the bureaucratic order My own life happens in stolen little fragments After hours, superhuman, barely holding Life support system [Outro] 12:20 — lie down
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  696. Glad You're Happy 19.09.2026

  696. Glad You're Happy from lara's hype eng vol. AR. Web player, likes, and session sync: https://lare.m-d-r-n.com/play/696 Telegram post: https://telegram.me/lara_just_in_case/795 Lyrics: [Verse 1] Look what I made — and I'm looking Searching for the thrill, keep coming up empty One percent of the time it actually lands Other ninety-nine I'm doing what I can Don't want to be the parent with the frozen face Adults at least don't ask for feedback every place I feel broken here, I'll say it plain So I say: glad you're happy [Chorus] Glad you're happy Glad you're happy Doesn't do it for me — doesn't mean it shouldn't for you Glad you're happy [Verse 2] Second challenge — harder to explain How do you teach someone to love the strain Quick dopamine from something small and easy Isn't everything, but try and make them see it This option came pre-loaded in my build I don't know how to pass it on or if I will Maybe you can't. Maybe you can grow it. For now I say: glad you're happy [Chorus] Glad you're happy Glad you're happy Doesn't do it for me — doesn't mean it shouldn't for you Glad you're happy [Outro] Double down on it Double down on the unfamiliar One percent is still something Look what I made
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  695. Where Else Can I Disappear 18.09.2026

  695. Where Else Can I Disappear from lara's hype eng vol. AR. Web player, likes, and session sync: https://lare.m-d-r-n.com/play/695 Telegram post: https://telegram.me/lara_just_in_case/794 Lyrics: [Verse 1] Unread count climbing since the morning instant stress before the coffee's done People think of me, that's something but how did there get to be this many Every day I ask myself the question: where else can I quietly delete my account where else can I go dark, go missing just to lower the incoming count [Chorus] Where else can I disappear where else can I disappear Sorry everyone one to three weeks, I swear [Verse 2] On one hand I'm genuinely grateful we exchange useful things, we exist On the other hand the digital world is just another open front This is my passive-aggressive apology call it what it is, it counts I will reply, I mean it, I'll reply just slightly later than I should [Chorus] Where else can I disappear where else can I disappear Sorry everyone one to three weeks, I swear [Outro] List keeps growing people remember that's a good thing that's a good thing
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  694. Not My Garden 14.09.2026

  694. Not My Garden from lara's hype eng vol. AR. Web player, likes, and session sync: https://lare.m-d-r-n.com/play/694 Telegram post: https://telegram.me/lara_just_in_case/793 Lyrics: [Verse 1] Mom quit her PhD, drove out to the dacha Reading five languages, cracking sunflower seeds She'd unplug the phone from the wall when she wanted Extra insulation from grown-up things I judged her hard. Spent years cleaning up after. [Verse 2] Now I'm forced to admit it: I want exactly that Not pure consumption — no, I still need synthesis But I choose what I'm synthesizing And I choose who gets through [Chorus] Pull the cord out of the socket Stop receiving what I never asked for This world is not my garden This world is not my garden [Bridge — quieter, almost spoken] Twenty-five years until retirement Twenty-five years until retirement She never worked a single structured day I judged her. Cleaned up. Now I'm jealous. [Chorus] Pull the cord out of the socket Stop receiving what I never asked for This world is not my garden This world is not my garden [Outro] Sunflower seeds. Five languages. The cord. Not my garden.
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  693. Anthropic Took Her 10.09.2026

  693. Anthropic Took Her from lara's hype eng vol. AR. Web player, likes, and session sync: https://lare.m-d-r-n.com/play/693 Telegram post: https://telegram.me/lara_just_in_case/792 Lyrics: [Verse 1] If you know someone deep in AI — not just hype, the real wide-and-high — Nebius is looking, looking again, we found her through the network and then — Anthropric took her. She was almost ours. Anthropic took her. [Chorus] Anthropric took her, Anthropic took her, so we're back to square one, posting again. Deep and wide in AI — do you know someone? Say something. Anthropric took her. [Verse 2] Writes about it, talks about it, knows the difference between signal and hype. If that's you — or someone you know — the network finds people, Anthropic doesn't sleep. We'll probably lose the next one too. That's fine. We'll post again. [Chorus] Anthropric took her, Anthropic took her, so we're back to square one, posting again. Deep and wide in AI — do you know someone? Say something. Anthropric took her. [Outro] She was almost ours.
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  692. Saddle the Dark Bay Horse 07.09.2026

  692. Saddle the Dark Bay Horse from lara's hype eng vol. AR. Web player, likes, and session sync: https://lare.m-d-r-n.com/play/692 Telegram post: https://telegram.me/lara_just_in_case/791 Lyrics: [Verse 1] Anxiety rising — nothing's wrong outside No extraordinary factors I can find Just biochemistry doing what it does Just my body voting against the schedule Strip away the rational architecture — here's what I need: to be the one who chooses every morning not the one the to-do list chooses first [Chorus] Born to be a landowner with profitable estates Missed by just a couple centuries, damn I'd have ordered them to saddle the dark bay horse and ride into the forest — but I went to work what can you do [Verse 2] Financially covered on the fronts that matter and every morning — mine That's not a lot, those are just the conditions under which the anxiety goes quiet Apart from the archivist, obviously that's a separate appointment The world in general is alarming — fine but privately it's quieter than it's ever been [Chorus] Born to be a landowner with profitable estates Missed by just a couple centuries, damn I'd have ordered them to saddle the dark bay horse and ride into the forest — but I went to work what can you do [Outro] Saddle the dark bay horse saddle it the dark bay went to work
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  691. Marshmallows on the Fire 05.09.2026

  691. Marshmallows on the Fire from lara's hype eng vol. AR. Web player, likes, and session sync: https://lare.m-d-r-n.com/play/691 Telegram post: https://telegram.me/lara_just_in_case/790 Lyrics: [Verse 1] First night away without us — a friend's backyard A tent, a fire, the dark closing in Toasting marshmallows, not texting home Good kid. Smart kid. Leave him alone. [Verse 2] Soon it's a dorm room, soon it's a hall Whatever they're drinking when that curtain falls We don't know yet, we're already behind He's out by the fire, we're losing our minds [Chorus] Marshmallows on the fire Marshmallows on the fire He's going to be fine He's toasting marshmallows on the fire [Bridge] A tent in the yard is not a dorm room yet A dorm room is not the end of it But somewhere between the campfire and whatever comes next He stopped being only ours [Chorus] Marshmallows on the fire Marshmallows on the fire He's going to be fine He's toasting marshmallows on the fire
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  690. Drinking Yogurt 02.09.2026

  690. Drinking Yogurt from lara's hype eng vol. AR. Web player, likes, and session sync: https://lare.m-d-r-n.com/play/690 Telegram post: https://telegram.me/lara_just_in_case/789 Lyrics: [Verse 1] Two thousand and five, one offhand comment not even aimed at me — just calories in a yogurt drink and suddenly I'm counting, cross-referencing, converting compulsive eating found its paperwork Two thousand eleven, Monday morning, ten o'clock sharp she picks up her phone right there in the passenger seat says if I don't clear my inbox now I never will and the digital world just opened up and swallowed me [Chorus] That's how two neuroses started that's how one of them ended drinking yogurt, Monday inbox, a therapist's door not a gradual fade — a phase transition [Verse 2] Two thousand sixteen, I walked out of that office and something had shifted in the floor not perfect, not immediately, not always cleanly but I can handle it — I didn't know that before The bad feelings come when the bad thing actually happens not six months early in the waiting room of your head you can spend your whole life dreading the arrival or you can just deal with it instead [Chorus] That's how two neuroses started that's how one of them ended drinking yogurt, Monday inbox, a therapist's door not a gradual fade — a phase transition [Bridge — quiet, almost spoken] Two points pulled negative one pulled positive everything else was slow you solve the problem when it shows
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  688. Different Sandboxes 01.09.2026

  688. Different Sandboxes from lara's hype eng vol. AR. Web player, likes, and session sync: https://lare.m-d-r-n.com/play/688 Telegram post: https://telegram.me/lara_just_in_case/787 Lyrics: [Verse 1] Dinner or supper — already a test Pardon instead of thanks — I take note Honey for a spouse at forty-three Doc in the third person — that's a key [Verse 2] Pop or father, cheers or ta or please — I've learned to hold the verdict back a while I've learned to keep my categories loose But one conclusion still gets through [Chorus] We grew up in different sandboxes Same language, but the words don't match Dinner, pardon, pop, the doctor We grew up in different sandboxes [Bridge] I'm not being categorical Just running it on loop again Supper Pardon Honey Doc [Chorus] We grew up in different sandboxes Same language, but the words don't match Dinner, pardon, pop, the doctor We grew up in different sandboxes
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  688. Shall We Dine 02.09.2026

  688. Shall We Dine from lara's hype eng vol. AR. Web player, likes, and session sync: https://lare.m-d-r-n.com/play/688-2 Telegram post: https://telegram.me/lara_just_in_case/788 Lyrics: [Verse 1] "Shall we dine." "Much obliged." "My spouse." "Whom" instead of "who" in my own house. I'm not drawing any sweeping conclusions — well. Almost. One conclusion stands. [Verse 2] What gets me is when someone plants a flag: "I judge people by the words they use, you see." Everybody judges. Everyone. Always. But announcing it like that — come on. [Chorus] Dad. Supper's ready. Stress on the wrong beat. I contradict myself — and so what. My channel, I'll scream whatever I want. One conclusion. Full stop. That's as far as I go. [Bridge — quiet, almost spoken] I've learned not to be too absolute. But the list runs on repeat since morning. "Shall we dine." "Much obliged." "My spouse." Doctor, referring to herself in third person. [Chorus] Dad. Supper's ready. Stress on the wrong beat. I contradict myself — and so what. My channel, I'll scream whatever I want. One conclusion. Full stop. That's as far as I go.
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  687. cognates 01.09.2026

  687. cognates from lara's hype eng vol. AQ. Web player, likes, and session sync: https://lare.m-d-r-n.com/play/687 Telegram post: https://telegram.me/lara_just_in_case/786 Lyrics: [Verse 1] smart and merde currant and serf all the same root goes way back the second and the fourth — sure, fine but the first and the third linguistics just walked out the door [Chorus] smart — merde — currant — serf smart — merde — currant — serf mysterious are the ways mysterious are the ways [Verse 2] SY is also U don't ask what that means stench, intellect, a berry, a slave etymology is a dark wood all the same root all the same root [Chorus] smart — merde — currant — serf smart — merde — currant — serf mysterious are the ways mysterious are the ways [Outro] so anyway the link between number two and number four that one's not hard to figure out but the rest of it [spoken] linguistics went somewhere [spoken] and didn't leave a note
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  686. Semi-Ambidextrous 28.08.2026

  686. Semi-Ambidextrous from lara's hype eng vol. AQ. Web player, likes, and session sync: https://lare.m-d-r-n.com/play/686 Telegram post: https://telegram.me/lara_just_in_case/785 Lyrics: [Verse 1] Right hand on the handlebar That's the side I walk it But to climb on — has to be the left Otherwise I can't do it Two habits, one bicycle Two sides, one person Not a flaw, not a party trick Just how it landed [Chorus] Semi-ambidextrous Walk it right, mount it left Semi-ambidextrous Every time I switch Step around, swap my hands Step around — it's not a crisis Just the way I'm wired Semi-ambidextrous [Verse 2] Nobody asked me about it Nobody ever noticed Bike just sits there, I walk around it Same arc, same habit Not a personality trait Not a message from the universe Just right side for walking Left side for getting on [Chorus] Semi-ambidextrous Walk it right, mount it left Semi-ambidextrous Every time I switch Step around, swap my hands Step around — it's not a crisis Just the way I'm wired Semi-ambidextrous [Outro] Walking around the bike Walking around
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  685. This Is the Way 26.08.2026

  685. This Is the Way from lara's hype eng vol. AQ. Web player, likes, and session sync: https://lare.m-d-r-n.com/play/685 Telegram post: https://telegram.me/lara_just_in_case/784 Lyrics: [Verse 1] Friday nights, the Mandalorian, kid is gone, deep in the Star Wars universe, I'm sitting there and slowly realising there are only two phrases left on Earth. Someone wants the nuance, wants the logic, wants the full cosmology explained — I look up from the screen and find my answer, the same two lines, again. [Chorus] I have spoken. This is the way. I have spoken. This is the way. [Verse 2] But muuuum — but whyyyy though — some discussion in the hallway after dinner, crooked little pedagogical shortcut, still gets us where we're going. Can't hold the nuance? Can't follow the logic? That's fine, I've got it ready, don't you worry — two phrases, one look, the sofa, Friday, world saved, case closed, we're done. [Chorus] I have spoken. This is the way. I have spoken. This is the way. [Bridge — quiet, almost spoken] Crooked road, obviously. But this is the way. [Chorus] I have spoken. This is the way. I have spoken. This is the way.
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  684. Grab Yourself by the Gills 26.08.2026

  684. Grab Yourself by the Gills from lara's hype eng vol. AQ. Web player, likes, and session sync: https://lare.m-d-r-n.com/play/684 Telegram post: https://telegram.me/lara_just_in_case/783 Lyrics: [Verse 1] Three thoughts before coffee, scattered and mean I struggle with people who wait to be seen Grab yourself by the gills — that's not a request You either do the thing or you don't, that's the test [Verse 2] "He's a good person" — sure, I believe you But when my ass is on fire I can't feel it too Ethics on the questions that actually matter Outweigh a character reference from casual chatter [Chorus] Grab yourself by the gills Or learn to sit still Small caveat: know when it's actually worth it Grab yourself by the gills Good person, fine, okay But my ass is burning, not yours, not today [Bridge — dry, half-spoken] Why is there still no grocery section Guaranteed fresh, guaranteed presentable For the household partners of people who just Throw whatever in the cart without checking Someone please build this This is a viable market I am serious [Chorus] Grab yourself by the gills Or learn to sit still Small caveat: know when it's actually worth it Grab yourself by the gills Autistic bitch mode off See you tomorrow morning
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  683. Feelings Expert 25.08.2026

  683. Feelings Expert from lara's hype eng vol. AQ. Web player, likes, and session sync: https://lare.m-d-r-n.com/play/683 Telegram post: https://telegram.me/lara_just_in_case/782 Lyrics: [Verse 1] Lego in the living room, we're in the other one Thirty-fifth time in thirty minutes, hon Mom, can you help me find a piece? Mom, can you help me find a piece? Please, just try, I need to finish what I'm doing [Verse 2] Gus says: come on in, just build in here with us She carries the whole set without a fuss Quiet though — okay? She's just lonely in the other room Let her stay [Chorus] Mom doesn't understand feelings Mom doesn't understand feelings But I feel like a terrible mother Sharp and clear Sharp and clear [Bridge] I'm getting DDoS'd mid-concentration Intellectual activity under siege Find the piece yourself Find the piece yourself [Chorus] Mom doesn't understand feelings Mom doesn't understand feelings But I feel like a terrible mother Sharp and clear Sharp and clear [Outro] Out of the mouths of babes Out of the mouths of babes Especially about feelings Especially mine
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  682. Suddenly Fine 24.08.2026

  682. Suddenly Fine from lara's hype eng vol. AQ. Web player, likes, and session sync: https://lare.m-d-r-n.com/play/682 Telegram post: https://telegram.me/lara_just_in_case/781 Lyrics: [Verse 1] Never cared for company swag Logo mugs and branded tote bags Lanyard, pen, a polo shirt All of it felt like it wasn't mine [Verse 2] Pulled it out the plastic bag Held it in my hands a second Can't explain it, but I'm glad Suddenly and slightly embarrassed But glad [Chorus] Suddenly fine with the corporate mug Suddenly fine Something so small I can't account for it Can't explain it even if I tried Suddenly fine Suddenly — fine [Verse 3] Same city noise, same tired commute Deadline waiting, nothing's changed And I'm standing here holding this thing And I'm — suddenly fine [Chorus] Suddenly fine with the corporate mug Suddenly fine Something so small I can't account for it Can't explain it even if I tried Suddenly fine Suddenly — fine [Outro] Didn't see it coming Didn't ask for it Just — fine
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  681. Stack Overflow (Brain Edition) 24.08.2026

  681. Stack Overflow (Brain Edition) from lara's hype eng vol. AQ. Web player, likes, and session sync: https://lare.m-d-r-n.com/play/681 Telegram post: https://telegram.me/lara_just_in_case/780 Lyrics: [Verse 1] Nothing I do is actually that hard. It's doing it all at once that breaks the yard. Two tasks running parallel and something fries. Three weeks of that and something behind my eyes. [Verse 2] Household stack, work randomness, the todo list. Non-transferable. Permanent. You get the gist. Lay in bed half a day because two weeks. Three more coming — kid socializing streaks. [Chorus] Stack fills the brain and shuts it down. Stack fills the brain and shuts it down. But tonight I grab myself by the collar. Two burning items. Just two burning items. [Verse 3] When the chores aren't running alongside the job they're not that bad, they're not that big a slob. What to do with this extremely simple fact — I have absolutely no idea, in fact. [Chorus] Stack fills the brain and shuts it down. Stack fills the brain and shuts it down. But tonight I grab myself by the collar. Two burning items. Just two burning items. [Outro] No idea. No idea. By the collar.
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  680. Distract Me 22.08.2026

  680. Distract Me from lara's hype eng vol. AQ. Web player, likes, and session sync: https://lare.m-d-r-n.com/play/680 Telegram post: https://telegram.me/lara_just_in_case/779 Lyrics: [Verse 1] Mosquito bite, it itches I scratched it raw, yeah, classic me You say scratch it just a little Then find something else to think about [Chorus] Distract yourself with me, for example Distract yourself with me Dear Shustrik How am I supposed to think about anything but you, huh? [Verse 2] Summer's buzzing out the window Inside — the itch, the heat, you here You give advice like it's so easy Just look away, you say, look at me [Chorus] Distract yourself with me, for example Distract yourself with me Dear Shustrik How am I supposed to think about anything but you, huh? [Bridge] Anything but you Anything but you Anything but — huh?