Against My Will (Grow TF Up)

Episode

• dealing w insecurities ( i wish i was prettier ) 04.06.2026 15mnt

  This week's podcast is all about insecurities — the quiet little voices that make us question our worth, overthink situations, and sometimes sabotage perfectly good things.If you've ever spiralled over a text, compared yourself to someone online, or felt like you weren't enough, this one's for you. 🫶LETS CONNECT:@againstmywillpod & @buffbaby88 on InstagramWork enquiries: nellyjellylana@yahoo.com
• outgrowing rs & learning to let go (i try to) 03.05.2026 16mnt

  tough phase, but necessary. here's my take on learning to grasp the concept of outgrowing relationships. and I hope this doesn't make you so alone because hey, everyone goes through it honestly. LETS CONNECT:@againstmywillpod & @buffbaby88 on InstagramWork enquiries: nellyjellylana@yahoo.com
• learning to decenter men (i mean romance lol ) 10.04.2026 13mnt

  i love love…but maybe a bit too much to the point where i forgot about myselfso yea, we’re decentering love for a bit. for now. LETS CONNECT:@againstmywillpod on IG@buffbaby88 on my personal and Youtube! 🙂
• maybe being alone isn't so bad afterall 03.04.2026 18mnt

  as someone that used to date a lot, I have now actively chose not to - at least till I feel more ready . been learning to face myself . and honestly it’s so uncomfortable… but necessaryLETS CONNECT:@againstmywillpod on IG@buffbaby88 on my personal and Youtube! 🙂
• stop playing emotional games!!!! (in a rs) 19.03.2026 16mnt

  Emotional games are so commonly normalised, but at what point should we stop before we ruin authentic connections? Because does showing up inauthentically actually mean that we are able to find our person?? Let's talk about it. LETS CONNECT:@againstmywillpod on IG@buffbaby88 on my personal IG and Youtube!
• social media dating advices SUCK!!! 04.03.2026 15mnt

  Take it with a pinch of salt but I really hate how we show up for love because of what social media says. Social media determines what's right what's wrong and I'm tired of that because it really messes me up. I want to give my own views based on how I feel about different situations. What do you think?LETS CONNECT:@againstmywillpod on IG@buffbaby88 on my personal and Youtube! :)
• i hate that i don't trust myself 27.02.2026 18mnt

  I'm some girl you probably "know" from the internet and yet this is another unprofessional advice pep talk to myself (which you might relate) about self-trust, spiralling less, and rewiring my dramatic little brain. yes, I'm very turbulent and dramatic but I am willing to learn and pick myself up. @againstmywillpod on IG & @buffbaby88 on Youtube for the video version.
• communication is f hard 21.02.2026 15mnt

  On the first episode, I would like to share the biggest thing I struggle with - COMMUNICATION. it's something so simple that we seem to be able to, but in reality are we really communicating? let's look inward a little!!