Sex, Drugs & Sound Bowls: Psychospiritual Healing, Plant Medicine & Authentic Self Love

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  When My Tongue Becomes a Viper: Noticing Cycles, Boundaries, Capacity & Self-Reflection 08.08.2026 19мин

  Sex, Drugs, & Sound Bowls | Season 2, Episode 11This is what happens when you realize the sharpest words you speak are pointing straight toward an unmet need you are neglecting to honor within yourself.In this episode, I explore the moment I recognized a recurring pattern: once a month, luteal, my tongue becomes a viper. Rather than meeting that realization with shame, I get freaking curious about what it’s trying to teach me. Every emotion has wisdom to offer, if I could just learn how to slow down and listen without reacting.I share a heartfelt promise I made to my sweet Matty after realizing I hadn’t treated him like the king he is to me, and the simple practice I’m beginning to help me respond with greater awareness and curiosity instead of reactivity.We also explore:Why patterns matter more than isolated moments.The old wisdom: “Fool me once…” and how I apply it in relationships.Why boundaries are about what you will do, not what you need someone else to do.The freedom that comes when we stop waiting for permission, rescue, or someone else to change before we care for ourselves.Becoming deeply nourished, well-tended, protected, and blossoming from the inside out.Are you a volcano or a dead fish? Finding the courageous middle ground between suppression and explosion.The quiet power of self-reflection, journaling, and modeling healthy boundaries for our children.Why our capacity to love, parent, create, and serve is directly tied to how well we care for ourselves.I come back again and again to the experience that changing the world begins by tending myself well enough that what spills over naturally blesses everyone around you. When we tend to our own nervous systems, our own hearts, and our own needs first, what overflows into the world is no longer resentment or depletion but generosity, steadiness, and love. And that, my darling dear friends, is an energy that can and DOES changetheworld.Connect with me! In the comments, socials or by email: sexdrugsandsoundbowls@gmail.com✨Find me@JessieSirenOfficial (IG)@JessieSiren (TikTok)@SirenSkoolie (IG/TikTok)⚠️ DisclaimerThis podcast is for educational and harm-reduction purposes only. I am not encouraging or advocating the use of any illegal substances. No substances were consumed during the making of this episode. Altered states--whether achieved through breathwork, drumming, or plant medicines--can impact perception and decision making. Exploring these realms without proper guidance, preparation, and integration support can be dangerous. Please journey responsibly and in alignment with your own truth, safety, and sovereignty.
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  Let Them… And Let You: Trust Your Inner Knowing Without Needing Everyone to Agree 04.08.2026 18мин

  Sex, Drugs, & Sound Bowls | Season 2, Episode 10For most of my life, I believed there was a right way to live. A universal truth and a version of me that could finally get everyone’s approval.This episode is about allowing that illusion to fall apart.There were years of abandoning myself from medical decisions I made during pregnancy to countless moments where I silenced my own knowing because someone else seemed more certain than I was.Then, unexpectedly, it all crystallized on a family river day. Jude caught a crawdad and wanted to eat it. Indy saw himself as a protector of the river and believed eating it was wrong.Neither child was acting from malice. Both were acting from what felt deeply true inside them. And because it wasn’t me…but so close to me, I could really see that. That nobody was wrong here. Instead of deciding who was “right,” I realized my role wasn’t to convince one child to become the other. It was to help both of them learn something far more valuable: To stay rooted in their own values while remaining curious about someone else’s.This conversation explores:* why searching for one “correct” way to live keeps us disconnected from ourselves* the difference between healthy boundaries and trying to control another person’s choices* how criticism often replaces curiosity when we’re afraid* why honoring your own inner knowing doesn’t require anyone else’s permission* what my sons taught me about compassion, autonomy, and freedom* why “let them” might be one of the simplest and hardest spiritual practices there isAs Walt Whitman wrote,“Not I, nor anyone else can travel that road for you. You must travel it by yourself.” Maybe the greatest act of love isn't getting everyone to agree. Maybe it's learning to live in alignment with our own core values, while compassionately trusting that every person here is on their own journey—one we can never really understand or judge from the outside— and letting them do the same.If this episode resonates, I’d love to hear what it stirs in you. Share it with someone who’s learning to trust themselves a little more deeply.Connect with me! In the comments, socials or by email: sexdrugsandsoundbowls@gmail.com✨Find me@JessieSirenOfficial (IG)@JessieSiren (TikTok)@SirenSkoolie (IG/TikTok)⚠️ DisclaimerThis podcast is for educational and harm-reduction purposes only. I am not encouraging or advocating the use of any illegal substances. No substances were consumed during the making of this episode. Altered states--whether achieved through breathwork, drumming, or plant medicines--can impact perception and decision making. Exploring these realms without proper guidance, preparation, and integration support can be dangerous. Please journey responsibly and in alignment with your own truth, safety, and sovereignty.
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  Fake Nails: A Portal To The Divine Feminine 17.07.2026 12мин

  After a week surrounded by my beautiful sister and her daughters I am HYPED on femme energy! Lashes tinted and lifted, make over glammed out, and manicures abundant. This episode is me honoring the unveiling and teaching in every moment through everything, and specifically in this case: fake nails. Did ya know they can be a portal? An access point. A small, physical reminder that the divine feminine doesn't rush, she moves slow. She rests. She plays. She luxuriates. She doesn't grip life like it's about to run away from her.This episode is recorded live, mid-process, a little clunky, but I’m inviting you into a more vibrant living radiant experience of the feminine within (boys and girls alike!) through my weird magical nail portal, and hoping you’ll to do the same for me. What basic everyday mundane magical portals to the divine feminine are you enlisting?!Ashes to Wildflowers | A Sacred Women's Renewal Retreat Info here: https://jessiesiren.ju.mp/#retreatConnect with me! In the comments, socials or by email: sexdrugsandsoundbowls@gmail.com✨Find me@JessieSirenOfficial (IG)@JessieSiren (TikTok)@SirenSkoolie (IG/TikTok)⚠️ DisclaimerThis podcast is for educational and harm-reduction purposes only. I am not encouraging or advocating the use of any illegal substances. No substances were consumed during the making of this episode. Altered states--whether achieved through breathwork, drumming, or plant medicines--can impact perception and decision making. Exploring these realms without proper guidance, preparation, and integration support can be dangerous. Please journey responsibly and in alignment with your own truth, safety, and sovereignty.
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  5-MeO-DMT Experience: A Husband and Wife's Two Very Different Journeys 07.07.2026 42мин

  This one is so special. Matty boy is opening up more and more and I just loved getting to hear him use his voice! As for me? This 5-MeO-DMT  journey rocked my world in a way few things in this life have. It’s taken time to metabolize, and it’s been hard to find the words to translate it into shareable, useful information. No research or citations here, just me and Matt sitting down to talk about the medicine that changed us both in radically different ways.I took 5-MeO-DMT first, back in October. Matt didn't take his journey until this May, seven months later. So this episode isn't a single shared trip story. It’s two separate ceremonies, two nervous systems, two very different unfoldings, held up next to each other. Our hope is to share some polarity. To unpack our shared experience and feeling that there is “no bad journey”, and that whatever comes up, it’s all useful information. in this episode:* the polarity between our experiences, where they mirrored each other, and where they didn't* the beauty and power of circle & ceremony * the specific gifts each of us walked away with* why integration is so important  * the role of the space holder / facilitator, and why that container matters as much as the medicine itself* why the journey doesn't end when the ceremony doesThis is a playful conversation about journeying, about contrast, about twu wuv! We share how the same medicine can meet two people in totally different places, and what it's like to witness someone you love go through something you can't fully follow them into.As always: this is personal experience, not medical advice. 5-MeO-DMT is a powerful and serious substance, please do your own research, work with an experienced facilitator, and never go into ceremony unprepared.Ashes to Wildflowers | A Sacred Women's Renewal Retreat Info here: https://jessiesiren.ju.mp/#retreatConnect with me! In the comments, socials or by email: sexdrugsandsoundbowls@gmail.com✨Find me@JessieSirenOfficial (IG)@JessieSiren (TikTok)@SirenSkoolie (IG/TikTok)⚠️ DisclaimerThis podcast is for educational and harm-reduction purposes only. I am not encouraging or advocating the use of any illegal substances. No substances were consumed during the making of this episode. Altered states--whether achieved through breathwork, drumming, or plant medicines--can impact perception and decision making. Exploring these realms without proper guidance, preparation, and integration support can be dangerous. Please journey responsibly and in alignment with your own truth, safety, and sovereignty.
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  Nervous System Shutdown, Exhaustion & Zero Sex Drive: Finding My Way Back Through the Art of Doing Nothing 18.06.2026 29мин

  This month I come face to face with full nervous system collapse:  my first smattering of grays, exhaustion, zero sex drive, endless wallowing and finally hitting rock bottom.A deep heart to heart with Universe where I cry out for help and receive a clear answer: there isn't the way or the truth, there is only ever your way and your truth. When I get lost in my mind and look outside for answers, it's a lot of disappointment. When I connect deeply to what I call my IGS, or my Inner Guidance System, I am never let down.I share the power of keeping a dream log & heeding the dreamworld's call to follow the breadcrumbs. The breadcrumbs lead me to a yoga mat on the bank of the river, to the art of doing nothing, and back to the still, quiet voice of my inner knowing. I share how Universe schools me in the unraveling of old fear patterns and learning the art of discernment: aka what is excitement aka fear of the unknown, and what is warning-fear, I am shown the eternal procreant urge, and how if I can’t find peace here and now, ultimately there is no other side, and if I am waiting for it, I will always be waiting. I am shown that everything I’ve ever wanted is here, and now and in the stillness and quiet the magnitude of this deep medicine changes everything for me.Connect with me! In the comments, socials or by email: sexdrugsandsoundbowls@gmail.com✨Find me@JessieSirenOfficial (IG)@JessieSiren (TikTok)@SirenSkoolie (IG/TikTok)⚠️ DisclaimerThis podcast is for educational and harm-reduction purposes only. I am not encouraging or advocating the use of any illegal substances. No substances were consumed during the making of this episode. Altered states--whether achieved through breathwork, drumming, or plant medicines--can impact perception and decision making. Exploring these realms without proper guidance, preparation, and integration support can be dangerous. Please journey responsibly and in alignment with your own truth, safety, and sovereignty.
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  If You’re Everyone’s Cup of Tea, You Are Water: How to Market from Authenticity (Not Anxiety) 15.06.2026 26мин

  Back from holding space at a plant medicine retreat, twitterpated with inspiration and then home + almost immediately deflated by the matrix of the mind, marketing from stress, and losing the thread of myself entirely. So I took a walk with Spirit (which I always say is my way back, and then somehow forget for months and wonder whyyy am I flailing?! 😂) What came through was clear: the energy you market FROM is the energy you amplify. SO LET"S MAKE IT FUCKING DELICIOUS ENERGY! "IF YOU ARE EVERYONE'S CUP OF TEA, YOU ARE WATER" comes through & I realize I want to be so potent, so unapologetically MUCH, that some people BLECK and spit me right out, because that's skunk medicine. The ones not for it run. The ones who are, come running toward that muchness. Oh, and we open with a summer herbal chia hydration elixir that tastes like an arnold palmer and intelligently heals and hydrates the body. You're gonna want this recipe.Early bird pricing for Ashes to Wildflowers ends June 15th — save $75 on our women's plant medicine retreat in Roy, WA. And The Sacred Weave of the Rose sound bath series begins June 14th — Root, Thorn & Bloom, three sessions, $50 each. Both at jessiesiren.ju.mpConnect with me! In the comments, socials or by email: sexdrugsandsoundbowls@gmail.com✨Find me@JessieSirenOfficial (IG)@JessieSiren (TikTok)@SirenSkoolie (IG/TikTok)⚠️ DisclaimerThis podcast is for educational and harm-reduction purposes only. I am not encouraging or advocating the use of any illegal substances. No substances were consumed during the making of this episode. Altered states--whether achieved through breathwork, drumming, or plant medicines--can impact perception and decision making. Exploring these realms without proper guidance, preparation, and integration support can be dangerous. Please journey responsibly and in alignment with your own truth, safety, and sovereignty.
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  When Patterns Finally Break | The Mind, Karmic Cycles & The Flood That Changes Everything 29.05.2026 34мин

  Season 2, Episode 5HI FRIENDS! Settled in with a warm cup of horsetail tea and here to take you on a journey through some of the most powerful tools and ideas I've been sitting with lately. I open up my windowsill apothecary and walk you through the every day health boosting treasures I’ve been storing there.  From tooth health to electrolytes replenishing (it's not a very far jump).From there we dive into Wu Wei, the ancient principle of effortless action that has haunted me for years like an angel on my shoulder reminding me to heave a big *sigh* from time to time and let the energy of life work it’s magic through me.  I share a real life experience that brought its full spectrum meaning home for me in a radical and powerful new way.Then we get into one of my favorite lessons I come back to again and again in the spiral dance of life: the art of writing a better story. The narratives we construct in our minds about other people, their motives, their actions….they're always just that: stories. So why not make them ones that free us rather than bind us? That lighten us rather than aggravate us? The stories born from the matrix of the mind aren't enemies, they're messengers, revealing something true about you.We play in land of invisible energetic strings, I KNOW you know, the ones that unconsciously drain us, and the profound liberation that comes from plugging those leaks and reclaiming your vitality, clarity, and agency. Think of it as energetic housekeeping for your soul.And we close with one of my favorite truths: speak to a king and a king will arrive. Our words are spells. They can nurture, nourish, and elevate or quietly erode the relationships and realities we're building.Connect with me! In the comments, socials or by email: sexdrugsandsoundbowls@gmail.com✨Find me@JessieSirenOfficial (IG)@JessieSiren (TikTok)@SirenSkoolie (IG/TikTok)⚠️ Disclaimer This podcast is for educational and harm-reduction purposes only. I am not encouraging or advocating the use of any illegal substances. No substances were consumed during the making of this episode. Altered states--whether achieved through breathwork, drumming, or plant medicines--can impact perception and decision making. Exploring these realms without proper guidance, preparation, and integration support can be dangerous. Please journey responsibly and in alignment with your own truth, safety, and sovereignty.
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  Rigid Bones, Rigid Minds: Somatic Practices for Releasing Physical and Emotional Tension 19.05.2026 44мин

  Season 2, Episode 4A prayer and blessing for you, and for me:Source. Love. God. Universe, please continue to show me what I am blind to. What I have been unwilling or unable to see that is holding me back from living my fullest, most compassionate, most ecstatic, love-infused, joy-infused existence. Show me. Teach me. Teach me in ways that wow me and delight me and leave me wondering. Teach me in ways that integrate the wisdom of the learning seamlessly. As you have, as you do, as you will. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.The rigidity, the inflexibility, the immobility of my skull bones was causing headaches and tension and somewhere in the middle of the night it became a beautiful metaphor for me. Because the same rigidity and immobility I was feeling mentally and emotionally was also impeding the flow of the energy of LIFE through me, and causing suffering in my life. This episode is an offering of a few different ways I work with that inflexibility.The past few months have been a wild ride. So many big changes, painful and grief-filled things happening. And just like on a good roller coaster, even when you're excited, even when you're grateful for the ride,  there is a bracing that happens. A tension that sneaks into the body. And that tension, that immobility, causes suffering if it is not acknowledged and released. After a couple months of dealing with death, being triggered in really big ways through toxic family patterns playing themselves out, finding myself cut off from people I needed to hold protective boundaries with, entering into grief and sadness about that separation,  I wanted to share what's actually helping.In this episode I walk you through:Cranial release: a practice that has genuinely changed things for me (linking the incredible work of Dr. Karen Drummond's chiropractic)Myofascial release: because fascia is the webbing of life, the connective tissue through which all of the body's major systems: muscles, ligaments, tissues. are woven. When it is rigid and closed off, that affects our feeling of ease, flow, and vibrancy. Special shout-out to Dr. Nancy Kulik who introduced me to this life-changing practice, and I'm sharing this myofascial release from Human GarageDeep stretching through the neckShaking the body out: and yes, special shout-out to the year I spent learning to twerkFive Rhythms dance:  my final and ultimate somatic practice. I spend some time talking about the power of rhythm, how the five different rhythms correlate to the cycles we see in nature and the cycles we see reflected back to us through even the human cycle of life. I'm sharing my Spotify Wild Woman playlist that I shuffle for a five rhythms dance flowAnd I close with something I've been developing, Psychosomatic Face Yoga, a new series I started on social media because I kept noticing a missing link in all the face yoga and facial release content out there. This series is about noting the signs on the surface and going to the root. From the inside out and the outside in, let’s work some things out together, wildflowers. Connect with me! In the comments, socials or by email: sexdrugsandsoundbowls@gmail.com✨Find me@JessieSirenOfficial (IG)@JessieSiren (TikTok)@SirenSkoolie (IG/TikTok)⚠️ Disclaimer This podcast is for educational and harm-reduction purposes only. I am not encouraging or advocating the use of any illegal substances. No substances were consumed during the making of this episode. Altered states--whether achieved through breathwork, drumming, or plant medicines--can impact perception and decision making. Exploring these realms without proper guidance, preparation, and integration support can be dangerous. Please journey responsibly and in alignment with your own truth, safety, and sovereignty.
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  You Magnetize What You Broadcast: The Rabbit, the Eagle, and the Frequency of Fear 06.05.2026 18мин

  Season 2, Episode 3There is an old story about the rabbit. Running through the field, gripped by terror, it cries out,  “don't eat me, eagle, don't eat me” until finally the shadow of wings darkens the grass and the eagle swoops down and does exactly that. It was rabbit who called it in its exact demise. Not because it wanted to be consumed, but because fear is a frequency, and frequency is a broadcast, and the universe answers what you're transmitting.In this episode, I’m sitting with that story and what it reveals about the power we have as humans to co-create our own reality. When we broadcast scarcity, lack, not-enoughness out loud, in our bodies, in the low hum beneath our thoughts, we are not protecting ourselves from those things. We are calling them to us. We become the rabbit. We magnetize exactly what we most dread.The invitation here isn't toxic positivity or spiritual bypassing. It's something ancient, a way the mind begs us to forget: embodiment. You cannot simply think your way into a new frequency. I’ve tried, and I’ve got a hunch you probably have too. The thing you want most? You have to become it. In your nervous system, your breath, your willingness to let the thing you want actually land. This episode is about waking up to the harmful frequencies I’ve been broadcasting, the eagles I've been summoning, & learning to choose, sovereignly, to no longer beat the drum of the things I do not want . Connect with me! In the comments, socials or by email: sexdrugsandsoundbowls@gmail.com✨Find me@JessieSirenOfficial (IG)@JessieSiren (TikTok)@SirenSkoolie (IG/TikTok)⚠️ Disclaimer This podcast is for educational and harm-reduction purposes only. I am not encouraging or advocating the use of any illegal substances. No substances were consumed during the making of this episode. Altered states--whether achieved through breathwork, drumming, or plant medicines--can impact perception and decision making. Exploring these realms without proper guidance, preparation, and integration support can be dangerous. Please journey responsibly and in alignment with your own truth, safety, and sovereignty.RESOURCES Vipassana Meditationdhamma.orgKCSARC — King County Sexual Assault Resource Centerkcsarc.orgThe Body Keeps the Score — Bessel van der KolkFree with Libby app (library card)  ·  libbyapp.comThe Biology of Belief — Bruce LiptonFree with Libby app (library card)  ·  libbyapp.comBookshop.org
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  The Power of the Sleeping and Awakening Trauma Body: Stories I Wish I Had Heard at the Beginning (the Middle, and Hell, NOW) 01.05.2026 48мин

  Sex, Drugs, & Sound Bowls | Season 2, Episode 2 *TRIGGER
WARNING*This is an episode all about unpacking sexual trauma. No gruesome details, but storied expression and feels. It journeys through the shadowlands and lands in the valley of GRACE and gratitude <3 If you're here with me, I'm so sorry it's been hard, and I'm so happy we found each other <3Shiiiiiiiit I keep almost deleting it. We’ll see if/how long I can handle it here. It feels naked and messy and awkward. But I think that's because healing IS a little naked and awkward and messy. Whatever it is, it for sure isn’t linear. I've come to know it as the spiral dance of life. Each time we come back around to the sticky spots, we are invited to navigate with more and more compassion, awareness, wisdom, and grace.It's been a while since I felt the residual energy of past trauma in my body, yet here it is, showing up in strange places once again. Instead of holding it in this time, I'm sharing it. And instead of feeling defeated, I feel excited. Because I know how much I've grown through. How much I've brought into the light. I know the power I have to alchemize and get a little freer with each dissolved layer of trauma in these cells. I know that these sticky spots rearing their heads are the guardians and secret keepers of my body and always have something valuable to show me about myself.In this episode I share different stories as gateways to my own awakening. I honor the power of forgetting, and the power of remembering. The power of allowing myself to be messy, and also of taking ownership and responsibility for my part in the dance.The inability to push or rush or mentally force my own healing has been one of the most difficult things to navigate on my journey and also one of the most radically freeing. Taking back my power has meant so many things in this life: Recognizing my own role in playing out old patterns and paradigms. Normalizing trauma amnesia aka forgetting until it is safe enough to remember, weird kinks aka exploring kinks as literal energetic kinks in the hose of my energetic body, and rewriting/rewiring the story of love into something SAFE.Even as I finished this episode I felt myself flooded with so much hope, gratitude, love, and healing. Bless that those same waves wash over you dear one! Bless that you remember that no matter how ugly or deep or bloody your wounds are, they are never too much. You are never too much. There is always hope. You are worthy of healing, and honey, you do not have to go it alone.Connect with me! In the comments, socials or by email: sexdrugsandsoundbowls@gmail.com✨Find me @JessieSirenOfficial (IG) @JessieSiren (TikTok) @SirenSkoolie (IG/TikTok)⚠️ Disclaimer This podcast is for educational and harm-reduction purposes only. I am not encouraging or advocating the use of any illegal substances. No substances were consumed during the making of this episode. Altered states--whether achieved through breathwork, drumming, or plant medicines--can impact perception and decision-making. Exploring these realms without proper guidance, preparation, and integration support can be dangerous. Please journey responsibly and in alignment with your own truth, safety, and sovereignty.RESOURCES MENTIONEDVipassana Meditationdhamma.orgKCSARC — King County Sexual Assault Resource Centerkcsarc.orgThe Body Keeps the Score — Bessel van der KolkFree with Libby app (library card)  ·  libbyapp.comThe Biology of Belief — Bruce LiptonFree with Libby app (library card)  ·  libbyapp.com
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  Navigating Trauma: Somatic Healing, Remineralizing Teeth & Reclaiming Your Power From the Inside Out 20.04.2026 42мин

  Season 2, Episode 1Butthole lips, tucked tailbone, contracted belly OH MY! These are the postures of a body living in fear and I wore them for most of my life. In this episode I'm reporting live from the middle of my own unraveling: how trauma shows up in the face, the tissues, and the teeth, and the natural, embodied ways I've been finding my way back to open. We talk about natural ways to plump and soften your lips, the magic of bow-spring, and navigating loss with grace and compassion. We also get into holistic dentistry, how I remineralized 6 cavities, and how to walk into a room with someone in authority without handing them your power.Connect with me! In the comments, socials or by email: JessieSirenMusic@gmail.com ✨Find me @JessieSirenOfficial (IG) @JessieSiren (TikTok) Skoolie Bus @SirenSkoolie⚠️ Disclaimer This podcast is for educational and harm-reduction purposes only. I am not encouraging or advocating the use of any illegal substances. No substances were consumed during the making of this episode. Altered states--whether achieved through breathwork, drumming, or plant medicines--can impact perception and decision-making. Exploring these realms without proper guidance, preparation, and integration support can be dangerous. Please journey responsibly and in alignment with your own truth, safety, and sovereignty.
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  The Origin Story: Sex, Drugs, & Sound Bowls #19 11.04.2026 13мин

  THE LAST EPISODE OF THE SEASON BBS! Holy cow. Houston, we have a SEASON. So fucking grateful to be here, breath in my lungs, truth on my tongue, in all my glorious messiness with YOU. Thank you thank you thank you. For every listen, share, email, text, heartfelt reflection. Thank you for mirroring back to me at every turn there is nothing WRONG WITH BEING IN PROCESS, with being messy, mushy, confused, unsure, honest, and authentic. In fact, thank you for mirroring back to me the exact opposite. I hope you feel it too, that acceptance, that belonging, that connection. Cheers to season ONE! And to you! And to me! And to life and to living the way of the journey!This one is from way back when we thought Matt was gonna be my co-host. He’s still my ride or die, but as you will come to know…he is more of a “Being” kinda guy than a “talking” kinda guy. This is us before the bus, before I knew how to talk about any of this clearly, or even wtf it was gonna be.But it’s the root of everything. Matt and I sitting down, trying to put words to how we got here…the mess, the love, the choices, the chaos…sex, drugs, sound bowls, and somehow… this life.If you’ve found me recently and you’re wondering what is this and how did she get here, this is the closest thing to an origin story.Resources: Northwest Vipassana CenterOffering courses in Vipassana Meditation as taught by ⁠S.N. Goenka⁠in the tradition of Sayagyi U Ba Khin⁠https://www.dhamma.org/en-US/schedules/schkunja⁠Connect with me! In the comments, socials or by email: sexdrugsandsoundbowls@gmail.com✨Find me @JessieSirenOfficial (IG) @JessieSiren (TikTok) Skoolie Bus @SirenSkoolie⚠️ Disclaimer This podcast is for educational and harm-reduction purposes only. I am not encouraging or advocating the use of any illegal substances. No substances were consumed during the making of this episode. Altered states--whether achieved through breathwork, drumming, or plant medicines--can impact perception and decision-making. Exploring these realms without proper guidance, preparation, and integration support can be dangerous. Please journey responsibly and in alignment with your own truth, safety, and sovereignty.
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  How to Age 10 Years in One Week: Navigating Death, Grief, and the Loss of Home #18 09.04.2026 32мин

  It’s hard to explain, but John was Matt’s standing dad for the past two decades. And he’s gone, and the lands gone, and the community is broken, and we still want to live here… on the land where I first saw Matt @ 14, where we got married, where we wished we could live and grow old together… Behind the garden that he spent his whole life cultivating, on the river he was born and raised on. But it’s really painful to do that in this space right now. It’s really fucking unsettling to be in the garden looking at his house right now… I’ve never experienced anything like it. I realize it’s really triggering in the way of: I grew up in a home where really bad things were happening, but everybody smiled and waved and played nice and pretended that everything was fine. The same thing is happening here now. Everyone around is talking about how awful this thing is, how something devious was done in this deal. And yet everybody smiles and waves it very when he comes in and takes over. Experiencing my full fucking multidimensionality right now, like a layered cake with every flavor contradicting the other. Grief, betrayal, fear, old trauma, compassion, gratitude, hope, trust, love. Matt and I were gardening in the rain together a few days ago, tilted our faces to the sky and just prayed, show us the way. Show us so we cannot miss it. The way of peace, of joy, of love, of abundance. We are listening. We will follow where you lead. Amen. (and a little woman)Resources: Northwest Vipassana CenterOffering courses in Vipassana Meditation as taught by ⁠S.N. Goenka⁠in the tradition of Sayagyi U Ba Khin⁠https://www.dhamma.org/en-US/schedules/schkunja⁠Connect with me! In the comments, socials or by email: JessieSirenMusic@gmail.com ✨Find me @JessieSirenOfficial (IG) @JessieSiren (TikTok) Skoolie Bus @SirenSkoolie⚠️ Disclaimer This podcast is for educational and harm-reduction purposes only. I am not encouraging or advocating the use of any illegal substances. No substances were consumed during the making of this episode. Altered states--whether achieved through breathwork, drumming, or plant medicines--can impact perception and decision-making. Exploring these realms without proper guidance, preparation, and integration support can be dangerous. Please journey responsibly and in alignment with your own truth, safety, and sovereignty.
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  Stop Begging For Crumbs #17 20.03.2026 35мин

  I cried in the first 10 seconds of this episode. SO MANY FEELS RN in the wake of this solar eclipse portal and shadow of this new moon in Pisces. I am cracked the fuck open, so wide it feels painful like a birthing, so beautiful it feels like a first deep breath after a lifetime of holding.This is what healing looks like. This is mycelium brain and integration at its messiest/finest. I got brave and journeyed into a painful memory. And it broke me open. It was terrifying, and I shook and cried and felt the waves of pain and fear. And you know what was on the other side of it?More truth.More compassion.More CAPACITY.More TRUST.More power. No more begging for crumbs. No more honoring programs and systems and ways of being that were never intended to nourish the blossoming of my highest expression. No more waiting to feel safe. This episode is about turning up the volume on your inner essence, that still small ever-present voice that will always point you towards your truth north, your people, your most fulfilling expression. This episode is about claiming the life you fucking WANT, not the one you’ve been programmed to settle for. They told you you couldn’t’ have your cake and eat it too, well BIATCHES there is ALWAYS always a third option: BAKE FUCKING TWO CAKES, baking fucking ten if your heart so desires! You can have your hearts deepest desires AND you can have them the way that you want them.Be the Rose and the thorns or be consumed by the world.  But know that by not choosing you ARE making a choice. Listen if you’re ready to stop begging for crumbs and start having your cake AND eating it too,We can do it! I wub you. <3 meResources:Northwest Vipassana CenterOffering courses in Vipassana Meditation as taught by S.N. Goenkain the tradition of Sayagyi U Ba Khinhttps://www.dhamma.org/en-US/schedules/schkunjaConnect with me! In the comments, socials or by email: JessieSirenMusic@gmail.com ✨Find me @JessieSirenMusic⚠️ Disclaimer This podcast is for educational and harm-reduction purposes only. I am not encouraging or advocating the use of any illegal substances. No substances were consumed during the making of this episode. Altered states--whether achieved through breathwork, drumming, or plant medicines--can impact perception and decision-making. Exploring these realms without proper guidance, preparation, and integration support can be dangerous. Please journey responsibly and in alignment with your own truth, safety, and sovereignty.
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  So…I Took a Lot of Mushrooms: Letting Go of Control #15 20.03.2026 35мин

  I recorded this episode the day after a heroic dose journey with the epic Cloud Seeker. Fresh on the other side of a deep and epic exploration of inner space, still tender, still integrating, still listening.Nothing polished, nothing "figured out". Just beginning the process of weaving what was shown to me back into ordinary life: journey notes, pieces of insight, feelings, and revelations. Oh, and making soup. Little Bears Birthday Soup to the rescue! Tasty Earth medicine in a bowl!Think of this episode as the day-after integration: a moment to sit with the medicine, the mystery, and the meaning while it’s all still alive in my body and heart.✨Find me @JessieSirenMusic⚠️ Disclaimer This podcast is for educational and harm-reduction purposes only. I am not encouraging or advocating the use of any illegal substances. No substances were consumed during the making of this episode. Altered states--whether achieved through breathwork, drumming, or plant medicines--can impact perception and decision-making. Exploring these realms without proper guidance, preparation, and integration support can be dangerous. Please journey responsibly and in alignment with your own truth, safety, and sovereignty.
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  Becoming The Safe Place (No Thorns, No Rose, Baby)  #16 10.03.2026 32мин

  In this episode, life holds up the mirror and I reflect on recognizing the pattern of looking outside myself for safety, protection, or rescue, and the shift that happens when I realize the whole and healed masculine and feminine I’ve been waiting for...actually live inside of me.I talk about healing and integrating these energies and finally fucking BECOMING my own safe place. I revel in the power embodying that kind of integration lends itself to...a wholeness, a beauty, a nourishing and blessing quality I can fill up with and pour out on my partner Matt, my children, and my community.I also touch on the importance of boundaries again: no thorns, no rose, baby. In this world everything eats and is eaten, and without boundaries we are easily consumed. Learning to hold loving boundaries is part of what allows that inner safety and wholeness to exist. Letting your thorns show is the very thing that creates the safety for your BLOSSOMING, baby! ✨Find me @JessieSirenMusic⚠️ Disclaimer This podcast is for educational and harm-reduction purposes only. I am not encouraging or advocating the use of any illegal substances. No substances were consumed during the making of this episode. Altered states--whether achieved through breathwork, drumming, or plant medicines--can impact perception and decision-making. Exploring these realms without proper guidance, preparation, and integration support can be dangerous. Please journey responsibly and in alignment with your own truth, safety, and sovereignty.
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  Becoming The Safe Place (No Thorns, No Rose, Baby)  #16 09.03.2026 32мин

  In this episode, LIFE holds up the mirror and I reflect on recognizing the pattern of looking outside myself for safety, protection, or rescue, and the shift that happens when I realize the whole and healed masculine and feminine I’ve been waiting for...actually live inside of me.I talk about healing and integrating these energies and fucking BECOMING my own safe place. I revel in the power embodying that kind of integration lends itself to...a wholeness, a beauty, a nourishing and blessing quality I can fill up with and pour out on my partner Matt, my children, and my community.I also touch on the importance of boundaries again: no thorns, no rose, baby. In this world everything eats and is eaten, and without boundaries we are easily consumed. Learning to hold loving boundaries is part of what allows that inner safety and wholeness to exist. Letting your thorns show is the very thing that creates the safety for your BLOSSOMING, baby! 
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  Bye-bye Gray Days (& Hair): The Magic of Re-patterning #14 23.01.2026 40мин

  What does it mean to nurture the feminine? Not just to mental it, but to LIVE it?Exploring the discomfort and power of re-patterning, especially as it shows up when we begin holding clear boundaries. A boundary, by nature, creates disappointment because we’re saying no to something or someone who wants a yes. This episode is about me navigating how to stand in that truth with grace, clarity, and self-respect while simultaneously allowing the other to feel their feelings AND NOT BE PULLED OUT OF MY BOUNDARY. Watch me pull my own hair, give myself the best massage eva and hang upside down with me as I share some practical tools I’m using right now to break up old negative holding patterns both physically and emotionally without bypassing or forcing positivity.And big ole fat note to self here* soooooometimes “feeling good” isn’t joy or bliss, sometimes it’s just one step up. From numbness to anger. From anger to frustration. From frustration to presence. From presence to noticing little glimmers of beauty.We talk about: • Repatterning the nervous system gently and honestly • Allowing disappointment without self-betrayal • Curating small, meaningful moments that signal safety to the body • Building ojas / jing / vital force during the winter months • Nourishing the nervous system, restoring vitality, and supporting hair health, slowing, preventing, and even reversing premature graying.Nurturing the feminine isn’t about feeling good all the time.Sometimes it’s just choosing a feeling that’s one step better.We can do it! I wub you. <3 me✨Find me @JessieSirenMusic⚠️ Disclaimer This podcast is for educational and harm-reduction purposes only. I am not encouraging or advocating the use of any illegal substances. No substances were consumed during the making of this episode. Altered states--whether achieved through breathwork, drumming, or plant medicines--can impact perception and decision-making. Exploring these realms without proper guidance, preparation, and integration support can be dangerous. Please journey responsibly and in alignment with your own truth, safety, and sovereignty.
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  I Can Fucking Read #13 22.12.2025 10мин

  There was a time when the world was full of signs and symbols, but I didn’t yet have the language to read them. Like a child staring at letters before they make sense. In this episode, I trace my journey from the sleeping maiden to slow awakening. Somatic, psychic, collective. This is about learning the technology of presence and direct perception, remembering how to read the living world, and what happens when a whole new reality opens like a book you finally understand.✨Find me @JessieSirenMusic⚠️ Disclaimer This podcast is for educational and harm-reduction purposes only. I am not encouraging or advocating the use of any illegal substances. No substances were consumed during the making of this episode. Altered states--whether achieved through breathwork, drumming, or plant medicines--can impact perception and decision-making. Exploring these realms without proper guidance, preparation, and integration support can be dangerous. Please journey responsibly and in alignment with your own truth, safety, and sovereignty.
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  Matt's Podcast Virginity (& Other Sacred Initiations) #12 04.12.2025 36мин

  Today is a momentous day. The day where I finally take Matt’s podcast virginity. We’ve been together 100’s of lifetimes, 12 years in this one. I’m the talker, the nurturer, the dreamer, the visionary. He’s the rock, the anchor, the safety, the builder. Sharing here was vulnerable and brave of my sweet Matty but I am so glad he was brave enough to do it because he is truly a testament to the power of unconditional LOVE. I do not know who I would be without his tender, fierce and unwavering love. Here we dip our toes in the waters of remembering and relate a bit of our journey together and how we have used psychedelics  mindfully and therapeutically to support ourselves in healing together and apart on the Journey. ✨Find me @JessieSirenMusic⚠️ Disclaimer This podcast is for educational and harm-reduction purposes only. I am not encouraging or advocating the use of any illegal substances. No substances were consumed during the making of this episode. Altered states--whether achieved through breathwork, drumming, or plant medicines--can impact perception and decision-making. Exploring these realms without proper guidance, preparation, and integration support can be dangerous. Please journey responsibly and in alignment with your own truth, safety, and sovereignty.