Codependency Alchemy: The Podcast

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  The push-pull pattern you don’t realize you’re creating (and why it keeps happening) 19.08.2026 21мин

  Have you ever chased connection until you felt rejected one too many times... and then suddenly found yourself pulling away?In this episode, we’re exploring the push-pull pattern that happens when our attempts to feel safe accidentally keep the cycle going. I’m sharing how I learned to use distance to get connection, why we can move between chasing and withdrawing, and the question that helped me understand why the same relationship dynamics kept showing up in my life.If you’ve ever wondered, “Why do I keep ending up in relationships like this?” this episode will give you a different question to ask.This episode is for you if...* You keep finding yourself in anxious/avoidant or push-pull relationships* You chase connection until you feel rejected, then suddenly shut down* You judge yourself for how you’ve behaved in past relationships* You keep wondering why the same relationship dynamic follows youYour invitation…Instead of asking, “Why do I keep ending up in relationships like this?” try asking yourself:“What is the lesson I’m being invited to learn when I find myself in this relationship dynamic?”Actually write the answer down, and if you feel open to sharing, leave it in the comments.Maybe this relationship isn’t proof that something is wrong with you. Maybe it’s illuminating something you’re finally ready to see.And if you want to go beyond understanding the push-pull pattern and actually tend to the part of you living inside of it, last week’s members-only episode is a guided Shadow Work + Inner Child Healing practice specifically for this dynamic.Click here to learn more and join our growing Codependency Alchemy community on Substack This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit alyssaaazander.substack.com/subscribe
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  The cheat code that changed my relationship with myself 05.08.2026 31мин

  Have you ever had one of those days where you just don't feel like yourself?Maybe you're more emotional, more sensitive, or more irritable than usual, and your first instinct is to wonder what's wrong with you.In this episode, I'm sharing the simple practice that completely changed my relationship with myself. It helped me stop judging my emotions, recognize my patterns, and communicate my needs with more compassion in my relationship.We'll talk about why understanding your body can be one of the greatest tools for emotional healing, how this practice has transformed my relationship with Justin, and why slowing down is sometimes exactly what your nervous system is asking for.If you've ever felt like you're constantly trying to "fix" yourself, this episode is for you.Your invitation…If you know what day you are on, share it in the comments, along with anything you notice about how you feel today.Mentioned in this episode…* Taking Charge of Your Fertility (here are their free downloadable PDFs)* Lively cycle tracking app* What I have learned since tracking my cycleIf you’d like to go beyond understanding your patterns and actually practice healing them, inside the Codependency Alchemy Membership we come together each month for guided shadow work, inner child healing sessions, live AMAs, and a private community where you don’t have to navigate this work alone.Click here to learn more and join our growing Codependency Alchemy community on Substack This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit alyssaaazander.substack.com/subscribe
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  When jealousy shows up (even when you trust your partner) 22.07.2026 27мин

  Have you ever felt jealous in your relationship... even though you genuinely trust your partner? In this episode, I’m sharing one of the most vulnerable stories I’ve told on the podcast.A moment with Justin that brought up unexpected jealousy, led to one of the biggest ruptures we’ve experienced, and ultimately taught me that jealousy is rarely about what we think it’s about.Together, we’ll explore what jealousy is actually pointing toward, why it often has very little to do with your partner, and how asking one simple question can help you move from reactivity to self-understanding.In this episode, you’ll learn…* The hidden fears that commonly live underneath jealousy* How insecure attachment can shape conflict and repair* The mistake I made when trying to repair too soon* A shadow work question to help you understand what’s really happening beneath the triggerThis episode is for you if...* You find yourself overthinking interactions between your partner and other people.* Jealousy quickly turns into anxiety, anger, or self-doubt.* You want to respond to triggers with more curiosity instead of shame.Your invitation…In the comments, share your reflections to this shadow work prompt:When you felt jealous, what were you actually afraid would happen?Then notice what lives underneath that answer. Jealousy isn’t asking to be judged, it’s asking to be understood.You can read my original post from when this event happened here: "I don't want to be with you anymore"If you’d like to go beyond understanding your patterns and actually practice healing them, inside the Codependency Alchemy Membership we come together each month for guided shadow work, inner child healing sessions, live AMAs, and a private community where you don’t have to navigate this work alone.Click here to learn more and join our growing Codependency Alchemy community on Substack This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit alyssaaazander.substack.com/subscribe
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  The real reason you can't let go of your ex 08.07.2026 25мин

  Have you ever felt like you couldn’t let go of someone even though you knew the relationship was over? In this episode, I share one of the most powerful shadow work questions I’ve ever used to help uncover why it’s so difficult to move on after a relationship ends.Together we’ll explore:* why we attach our dreams to people* how codependency keeps us trying to control the outcome* what it really means to build inner safety after heartbreak* a guided inner child healing practice to help you begin releasing the attachment without abandoning yourself.Whether you’re navigating a breakup, struggling to let go of an ex, or simply noticing how tightly you cling to certain outcomes in relationships, this episode is an invitation to turn inward instead of chasing certainty outside yourself.Because healing isn’t about getting someone back.It’s about coming home to yourself.What you’ll learn…* Why letting go feels so difficult after a breakup* How codependency fuels attachment* One shadow work question that changes everything* A simple inner child healing practice for building inner safety* How to move from control toward self-trustThis episode is for you if...* You’re struggling to let go of an ex* You’re healing codependency or anxious attachment* You want practical tools for moving through heartbreakYour invitationIn the comments, take a moment to ask yourself this shadow work prompt:What dream have I attached to this person?Then notice:* How do I feel when I believe that dream only exists with them?* How would I feel if I didn’t believe that thought?Sometimes what we’re grieving isn’t the relationship itself. It’s the story we’ve been telling ourselves about what our life can and cannot be.If you’d like support exploring these patterns more deeply, you’re invited into the Codependency Alchemy membership, where we practice shadow work, inner child healing, and nervous system tools together through live sessions, monthly AMAs, and an ever-growing library of guided healing practices.Click here to learn more and join our growing Codependency Alchemy community on Substack*Was this episode supportive? If so, please like and share it with someone else who might need to hear these conversations. As always, thank you for your support in helping me in my mission of spreading awareness around codependency and healing the mother wound. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit alyssaaazander.substack.com/subscribe
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  What if the pattern isn’t the problem? 17.06.2026 24мин

  Have you ever caught yourself spiraling and thought, "Why am I doing this again?" This episode is about what happens when we stop trying to get rid of the pattern and start listening to what it's trying to tell us.We explore why self-sabotage isn't actually the problem, how triggers point us toward unmet needs, and the powerful question that can completely change the way you relate to your patterns.What you’ll learn…* The question that helps you understand your triggers* How to identify what your patterns actually want and need* How shadow work helps us move through triggers with compassionThis episode is for you if...* You struggle with self-sabotage* You judge yourself when old patterns resurface* You feel frustrated that healing isn’t happening “fast enough”Your invitation…Take a moment to ask yourself these questions and type them out in the comments (or write them in your journal). Just make sure do somehow do this reflection somewhere that isn’t just in your head, it’s important to witness ourselves in these contemplations.What is one thing I keep doing that I wish I would stop doing?Then ask:* What does that part of me want?* What does that part of me need?* How would that part of me feel if it got that need met?Notice what comes up, because maybe the pattern isn’t the problem. Maybe it’s showing you exactly where healing wants to happen.If you’re wanting support exploring these questions more deeply, you’re invited into the Codependency Alchemy membership where we practice this work together through live shadow work sessions, inner child healing practices, monthly AMAs, and community support.Click here to learn more and join our growing Codependency Alchemy community on Substack. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit alyssaaazander.substack.com/subscribe
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  Why you feel the need to fill the space in relationships 03.06.2026 29мин

  Why does silence feel so uncomfortable in relationships?In this episode of Codependency Alchemy, I explore the hidden reason many of us rush to fill the space when our partner gets quiet, withdrawn, or dysregulated.In this episode, we explore:- Why silence feels triggering- The urge to seek reassurance- External vs. internal processors- How space creates deeper connection- Emotional regulation in relationships- Why trying to control someone else’s emotions creates more conflictYour invitation...Take a moment to ask yourself this shadow work prompt and share in the comments: If you don’t fill the space… what are you afraid will happen?Notice what comes up for you. Take time to actually write it out (or type it out)… even if you don’t hit post, the act of writing it out offers you a type of healing and witnessing that thinking it can’t give you.And if you’re wanting a space to practice this kind of reflection in real time alongside others who are also learning how to soften, receive, and build more secure relationships, you’re always invited into the Codependency Alchemy membership on Substack.It’s a space for shadow work, inner child practices, and honest conversations like this one… where you don’t have to do it alone.You can click here to join as a free subscriber or upgrade your subscription to explore the membership for deeper support. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit alyssaaazander.substack.com/subscribe
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  The “loving” relationship pattern that’s actually hurting you 20.05.2026 34мин

  Have you ever done something “nice” for someone… but secretly felt exhausted, resentful, or unseen afterward? This episode is about the hidden relationship dynamic underneath that pattern.After a conversation with my grandma about boundaries, family dynamics, and generational relationship patterns, I realized how many of us confuse self-sacrifice with love.In this episode, we explore the subtle ways codependency shows up through overgiving, people-pleasing, and saying yes when it isn’t actually true for us.Because sometimes the dysfunction in relationships isn’t just manipulation, guilt, or control.Sometimes it’s abandoning ourselves to keep the peace.What you’ll learn…* Why saying yes when you mean no damages trust* How over-giving creates resentment in relationships* Why boundaries are actually acts of love* How to ask for consent during difficult conversations* The difference between responsibility vs. blame* Why explaining your boundaries can signal dysregulationThis episode is for you if…* You struggle to say no and over-give in relationships* You feel guilty setting boundaries* You secretly resent people after helping them* You want healthier, more honest relationshipsYour invitation…Take a moment to reflect on this shadow work question:If I say no or set a boundary… what am I afraid will happen?Notice what comes up for you. Take time to actually write it out (or type it out)… even if you don’t hit post, the act of writing it out offers you a type of healing and witnessing that thinking it can’t give you.And if you’re wanting a space to practice this kind of reflection in real time alongside others who are also learning how to soften, receive, and build more secure relationships, you’re always invited into the Codependency Alchemy membership on Substack.It’s a space for shadow work, inner child practices, and honest conversations like this one… where you don’t have to do it alone.You can click here to join as a free subscriber or upgrade your subscription to explore the membership for deeper support. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit alyssaaazander.substack.com/subscribe
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  Why it’s so hard to receive support (even when you need it) 06.05.2026 35мин

  Have you ever pushed away support… even when you really needed it? This episode is about why receiving can feel so hard and what changes when we allow it.This episode is a little different. I’m showing up in real time, without a script, in the middle of a season that has completely shifted me.After losing a close friend and navigating multiple family health scares and loss, I found myself face to face with something I’ve worked on for years… my relationship to receiving.In this episode, I share what grief has revealed about hyper-independence, codependency, and all the ways we push away support.What you’ll learn…* Why hyper-independence is often rooted in lack of trust* How rejecting support shows up in subtle ways* The connection between codependency and not receiving* How allowing others to support you deepens connection* What grief revealed about vulnerability and being heldThis episode is for you if…* You struggle to accept help or support* You pride yourself on being “independent”* You feel uncomfortable receiving love or care* You tend to take care of others but not let them take care of youYour invitation…Take a moment to explore this shadow work prompt in the comments:“If I receive support, love, or care… what am I afraid will happen?”Notice what comes up. Remember, you don’t have to hit post or share it with anyone, but at least write it out to witness yourself.If you want to go a little deeper, you can also ask:* Where does that fear live in my body?* How old does that part of me feel?And if you’re wanting a space to practice this kind of reflection in real time alongside others who are also learning how to soften, receive, and build more secure relationships, you’re always invited into the Codependency Alchemy membership on Substack.It’s a space for shadow work, inner child practices, and honest conversations like this one… where you don’t have to do it alone.You can click here to join as a free subscriber or upgrade your subscription to explore the membership for deeper support. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit alyssaaazander.substack.com/subscribe
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  The trust-breaking pattern you don’t realize you’re doing in relationships 01.04.2026 24мин

  Have you ever wanted something from your partner but didn’t actually say it? This episode is about why we do that and how it slowly breaks trust in our relationships.This weekend, I caught myself in a pattern I’ve done many times before, and didn’t even realize I was doing it in the moment.I was trying to get a need met without actually saying what I needed.I was hinting, sweetening the deal, leaving things out… all to try to control the outcome instead of just being honest.In this episode, I break down what it means to withhold truth in a relationship, how it quietly erodes trust and intimacy over time, and what happens when we choose vulnerability instead.I also share what shifted in real time when I stopped the pattern and how it completely changed the experience.What you’ll learn…* What “withholding truth” actually looks like in relationships* The subtle ways we try to control outcomes (without realizing it)* How this pattern creates resentment and disconnection* What it feels like on the receiving end of only receiving the partial truth* How vulnerability builds safety and intimacy and what that can look like in our relationshipThis episode is for you if…* You hint instead of directly asking for what you want* You try to control outcomes to avoid vulnerability* You struggle to express your needs honestly* You feel resentment when your needs aren’t met* You want deeper trust and intimacy in your relationshipYour invitation…Take a moment to practice healing the mother wound by being witnessed in the comments. Think of a recent time where you withheld the full truth…* What truth were you withholding?* What vulnerability was underneath that?Remember, you don’t have to hit post if you’re not comfortable being witnessed in your share yet, but I invite you to at least type it (or write it) out for you to witness yourself.If conversations like these resonate with you and you want to take this awareness to the next step, you’re welcome to join our Codependency Alchemy community on Substack where we practice these reflections together through prompts, discussions, and live calls.You can click here to join as a free subscriber or upgrade your subscription to explore the membership for deeper support. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit alyssaaazander.substack.com/subscribe
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  3 questions that turn conflict into connection 18.03.2026 25мин

  Have you ever caught yourself thinking, “If they would just do this differently, everything would be fine”?This episode is about why that pattern keeps us stuck and the three questions that can shift the entire dynamic- and how it's completely changed the way I move through conflict in my relationship.In this episode we explore:* Why we hyperfixate on our partner during conflict* The hidden attachment behind “I wish they would…”* How codependent dynamics show up during arguments* The 3 questions that interrupt blame cycles* How vulnerability creates safety in relationships* Why waiting for your partner to go first keeps you stuckYour invitation…Take a moment to practice this in the comments. Think of a recent conflict that’s come up for you in your relationship and ask yourself the following questions:* What do I wish they would do?* How would I feel if they did it?* Am I giving that to them — or to myself?I invite you to share in the comments, or if you’re in the Codependency Alchemy membership, you can share your reflections in our chat.If this conversation resonates, you’re invited into the Codependency Alchemy community on Substack where we practice these reflections together through prompts, discussions, and live calls.Click here to join as a free subscriber or the membership for deeper support. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit alyssaaazander.substack.com/subscribe
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  Why you pick fights when things are going well 04.03.2026 25мин

  Why do we create conflict when life is actually going well?In this episode of Codependency Alchemy, I unpack the “upper limit problem” — the unconscious pattern of sabotaging joy, abundance, and peace when they start to feel unfamiliar.I share a real story of catching myself mid-spiral after an expansive workshop and the simple question that stopped me from creating unnecessary conflict.In this episode, we explore:- Why arguments aren’t really about the dishes- How worry turns into criticism- The 4 core fears that drive self-sabotage- Why peace can feel unsafe to a dysregulated nervous system- How to self-soothe instead of outsourcing reassuranceYour invitation…The next time you feel the urge to criticize, argue, or spiral, ask yourself:What happened right before this?If this episode resonates, you’re invited into the Codependency Alchemy membership, where we practice this work in real time through daily prompts, reflections, and support as you grow your capacity for joy, safety, and self-trust.Click here to upgrade and join the membership. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit alyssaaazander.substack.com/subscribe
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  Knowing what you want but still not getting it? This might be why 18.02.2026 12мин

  You’re clear on what you want, so why aren’t you getting it?There’s a painful in-between many of us find ourselves in: knowing what we want, and still not receiving it.In this episode of Codependency Alchemy, I revisit a simple but powerful analogy (we’re going to the ice cream shop) to explore why clarity alone isn’t always enough, and how settling for what doesn’t truly align can keep us stuck in relationships, jobs, or situations that drain us.This is a conversation about discernment, self-trust, and learning how to stop accepting “vanilla” when your body is asking for chocolate.What you’ll learn in this episode…* Why knowing what you want doesn’t always lead to getting it* How settling sends mixed signals to yourself (and the Universe)* Why impatience and unworthiness keep us stuck* How to stop accepting what you don’t actually wantThis episode is for you if…* You’re clear on what you want but keep getting something else* You struggle with settling out of fear or impatience* You’re practicing discernment in relationships or work* You’re healing codependency or the mother woundYour invitation…I invite you to think about what your “chocolate ice cream” is. You might consider this as the type of relationship, job, or home you wish to have.What is your chocolate ice cream?Remember, try to get as specific as you can. Ask yourself:How do I desire to feel? What do I value? In a relationship? In a job? In a home?If this episode resonates, you’re invited to continue these conversations inside the Codependency Alchemy membership— a space where we practice witnessing the parts of us we neglect, or reject, building safety in our bodies through nervous system and somatic work, and generational healing together.Click here to join or learn moreSubscribe over on Substack This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit alyssaaazander.substack.com/subscribe
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  When your partner says no (but you really wanted them to say yes) 04.02.2026 27мин

  There’s a moment many of us know well: your partner says no, and you really wanted them to say yes.In this episode of Codependency Alchemy, I walk through a real-life moment from my relationship with Justin where his “no” triggered old patterns of control, guilt, and self-abandonment. I share more about what I wish I had done differently.This isn’t about forcing agreement or suppressing your needs. It’s about learning how to respect your partner’s autonomy without making their “no” mean something about you…Oh, and without abandoning yourself in the process.What you’ll learn in this episode:* Why your partner’s no can feel so personal* How covert control and guilt show up in relationships* The difference between boundaries and power struggles* Why taking responsibility for your partner creates resentment* How to stay on the same side of the problem instead of “me vs. you”This episode is for you if…* You get triggered when your partner says no* You tend to take responsibility for other people’s choices* You struggle with resentment or over-functioning* You’re healing codependency or the mother woundYour invitation…As you listen and reflect on similar moments in your own relationship, you might contemplate:What am I making my partner’s no mean about me? What am I making their choice mean about our relationship?I invite you to share your reflections in the comments.Join the CommunityIf this episode resonates, you’re invited to continue these conversations inside the Codependency Alchemy membership— a space where we practice witnessing the parts of us we neglect, or reject, building safety in our bodies through nervous system and somatic work, and generational healing together.Click here to join or learn moreSubscribe over on Substack This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit alyssaaazander.substack.com/subscribe
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  Should you get back together with your ex? 3 questions to ask yourself first 21.01.2026 25мин

  Should you get back together with your ex, or is this just familiarity pulling you back in? Before you say yes, there are a few questions worth slowing down and asking.This episode is for anyone who’s considering getting back together with an ex and wants to do it differently this time.As someone who did get back together with her ex and rebuilt a relationship rooted in repair, accountability, and understanding that a safe nervous system is a non-negotiable, I share the three core questions that helped me discern whether reconnecting was actually aligned, or just old patterns resurfacing.This isn’t about convincing yourself to try again. It’s about slowing down, listening to your body, and making space for clarity instead of urgency.What you’ll learn…* The first question to ask before considering getting back together with an ex* How to tell if your ex has actually changed or is just saying the right things* Why old issues will come back (and how to plan for that honestly)* What it means to rebuild trust through repair instead of avoidance* How to stop over-functioning and let the other person meet youThis episode is for you if…* You’re thinking about getting back together with an ex* You’re afraid of repeating the same patterns* You want clarity without rushing a decision* You tend to over-function or take responsibility for both people* You want a relationship rooted in repair, not chemistry aloneMy invitation to you…Take a moment to reflect on what this relationship is here to teach and show you. Write in the comments:“This relationship is here to teach me…” and notice what comes through.If this episode resonates, you’re invited to continue this work inside the Codependency Alchemy membership, where we practice self-trust, repair, and building healthy relationships together.Click here to learn more. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit alyssaaazander.substack.com/subscribe
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  Holding Polarity: How to stay grounded when two opposing truths exist 07.01.2026 25мин

  What if nothing is wrong with you, you’re just being asked to hold two truths at the same time?In this episode of Codependency Alchemy, I explore polarity: the embodied experience of holding joy and grief, love and loss, fulfillment and longing—without collapsing, numbing, or forcing resolution.Through a deeply personal story involving my great-grandmother, my fertility journey, and stepping onto a stage to share my life’s work, I share what polarity actually feels like in the body, and why learning to witness it instead of fixing it is profoundly healing.What you’ll learn in this episode…* What “holding polarity” really means (beyond the concept)* How polarity shows up in relationships, grief, and identity* The difference between thinking your feelings and witnessing them* How witnessing yourself helps heal the mother wound* Why acceptance isn’t giving up… it’s embodied truthThis episode is for you if…* You feel emotionally overwhelmed by mixed feelings* You’re holding joy and grief at the same time* You struggle with overthinking instead of feeling* You’re healing codependency, attachment wounds, or the mother wound* You want to feel more grounded and self-trusting in uncertaintyYour invitation…As you listen, consider: What polarity am I being asked to hold right now? Name the two opposing experiences without judging them. I invite you to share your reflections in the comments.Join the CommunityIf this episode resonates, you’re invited to join the Codependency Alchemy membership— a space where we practice witnessing the parts of us we neglect, or reject, building safety in our bodies through nervous system and somatic work, and generational healing together.Click here to join or learn more This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit alyssaaazander.substack.com/subscribe
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  My go-to life changing book list for winter 29.10.2025 35мин

  Check out full book list post on Substack here: My go-to healing book list for winterThank you so much, everyone, for letting me walk alongside you this season.I have a quick favor to ask as we close out this season: If the podcast has supported you in any way it would mean the world to me if you would take just a moment to leave an honest rating or review on the podcast, wherever you listen. To make it easy, I’ll leave the link for you to leave a rating or a review below!When you rate and review the podcast it helps more people find the podcast who are looking to join and have these kinds of conversations around healing codependency and the mother wound. Your voice makes a huge impact, and I am so grateful to receive your support. Thank you.I hope you all have a restful and nourishing winter, and hopefully I’ll see you in the Codependency Alchemy membership!JOIN THE MEMBERSHIP This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit alyssaaazander.substack.com/subscribe
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  How to get out of the thought spiral (in 3-steps) 22.10.2025 35мин

  Do you ever notice how one small trigger can send you into a full-blown spiral? Maybe your partner takes too long to text back, or a conflict makes you think the relationship is doomed and suddenly you’re catastrophizing, overthinking, or blaming yourself. In this episode of Codependency Alchemy, I walk you through my 3-step “Stop the Spiral” framework (Root, Regulate, Redirect) to help you come back to your body when your nervous system gets hijacked. We’ll explore common thought spirals like fear of abandonment, self-blame, and overthinking, and I’ll share how to re-center with compassion instead of control.This episode is for you if:* You find yourself stuck in anxious or intrusive thought loops.* You panic when there’s space or silence in your relationship.* You replay conversations, wondering if you said the “wrong thing.”* You want to feel calm and grounded instead of consumed by fear.I know now that spiraling is actually just my body asking for safety. When you pause to root into what’s actually happening, regulate your nervous system, and redirect your energy back to yourself, you stop trying to fix the fear and start learning from it.🌟 Special Podcast Listener Offer: Join the Codependency Alchemy Membership today and get 40% off!→ Click here to claim your discount and join now!💬 Get Community Support: Join our vibrant, supportive chat community and get real-time guidance on your healing journey. → Join the chat✨ Free Shadow Work & Inner Child Guide: Ready to deepen your healing with a step-by-step guide?→ Download my FREE guide🎥 Watch 9+ Powerful Masterclasses: Access practical tools, guided exercises, and transformative teachings to help you heal codependency and build healthier relationships. → Exclusive Masterclass Library✍🏾 From My Journal: Intimate insights and reflections directly from my personal healing journey.→ Read my latest journal entries💎 Explore “The Gems”: Browse curated free resources filled with practical wisdom and actionable insights designed to support your growth and healing. → Get your free resources here This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit alyssaaazander.substack.com/subscribe
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  Why fixing their mood doesn’t fix you 15.10.2025 51мин

  Do you ever feel like it’s your job to make your partner (or kids, or parents) feel better when they’re upset? In this episode of Codependency Alchemy, we explore the codependent pattern of taking responsibility for someone else’s emotions and how it leaves you feeling resentful, anxious, and disconnected from yourself. I share how to shift from fixing their discomfort to creating safety within yourself, and we practice a real-time shadow work and somatic inner child exercise to help you break the cycle.This episode is for you if:* You immediately spring into action when your partner seems grumpy.* You believe making them feel better will give you peace or safety.* You feel resentful after trying to “fix” their mood.* You’re ready to learn tools that help you meet your discomfort instead of abandoning yourself.The real invitation is to ask yourself: is your partner asking you to fix their mood? The belief that “if I make them better, I’ll feel safe” is an old survival strategy, and we can appreciate how it supported you at one point in time but it doesn’t actually work in your adult relationships. In fact, it often leaves you more anxious, frustrated, or resentful. The real alchemy happens when you take all the energy you’d spend on fixing them and pour it into caring for yourself.🌟 Special Podcast Listener Offer: Join the Codependency Alchemy Membership today and get 40% off!→ Click here to claim your discount and join now!💬 Get Community Support: Join our vibrant, supportive chat community and get real-time guidance on your healing journey. → Join the chat✨ Free Shadow Work & Inner Child Guide: Ready to deepen your healing with a step-by-step guide?→ Download my FREE guide🎥 Watch 9+ Powerful Masterclasses: Access practical tools, guided exercises, and transformative teachings to help you heal codependency and build healthier relationships. → Exclusive Masterclass Library✍🏾 From My Journal: Intimate insights and reflections directly from my personal healing journey.→ Read my latest journal entries💎 Explore "The Gems": Browse curated free resources filled with practical wisdom and actionable insights designed to support your growth and healing. → Get your free resources here This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit alyssaaazander.substack.com/subscribe
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  The shadow side of comfort zones 08.10.2025 44мин

  Do you ever notice how even when you know something isn’t working — the job, the relationship, the habit — you still put off making the change? In this episode of Codependency Alchemy, I share what I’ve been navigating around stepping away from being the “fixer,” why we cling to what feels familiar even when it drains us, and how to use shadow work and inner child healing to move through the fear of the unknown.This episode is for you if:* You’re afraid that making a change means you’ll lose people or end up alone.* You keep waiting for the “right time” to make a move, but it never comes.* You feel stuck in old patterns of caretaking or people-pleasing.* You’re ready to learn tools that help you feel safe enough to choose differently.Whether we like it or not, not making a change is also a choice— and it often gives us the very opposite of what we think it will. We tell ourselves staying the same will bring safety or stability, but it usually leaves us with guilt, anxiety, and exhaustion. The medicine here is compassion. When you hold that part of you with love and say, “Of course you’re afraid,” you create the safety you need to move forward.🌟 Special Podcast Listener Offer: Join the Codependency Alchemy Membership today and get 40% off!→ Click here to claim your discount and join now!💬 Get Community Support: Join our vibrant, supportive chat community and get real-time guidance on your healing journey. → Join the chat✨ Free Shadow Work & Inner Child Guide: Ready to deepen your healing with a step-by-step guide?→ Download my FREE guide🎥 Watch 9+ Powerful Masterclasses: Access practical tools, guided exercises, and transformative teachings to help you heal codependency and build healthier relationships. → Exclusive Masterclass Library✍🏾 From My Journal: Intimate insights and reflections directly from my personal healing journey.→ Read my latest journal entries💎 Explore "The Gems": Browse curated free resources filled with practical wisdom and actionable insights designed to support your growth and healing. → Get your free resources here This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit alyssaaazander.substack.com/subscribe
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  The fear that almost ruined my relationship (and the lesson that saved it) 01.10.2025 22мин

  A year ago today, Justin and I got kicked off a flight, and what could have been a total meltdown moment turned into one of the biggest relationship lessons of my life. Over pints in the Amsterdam airport, I realized I’d been carrying the same fear in new clothing and it was quietly robbing me of experiencing the love I already had in my relationship.In this episode, I share the full story and the mind-shattering epiphany that cracked me open: why trying to control your partner’s future resentment (or cheating, or rejection) only keeps you stuck, and how softening, trusting, and letting yourself be supported can actually transform your relationship.This episode is for you if:* You find yourself bracing for impact instead of enjoying the present.* Money, resentment, or “what if” fears creep into your love life.* You tend to control, fix, or over-function to feel safe.* You’re ready to experience what happens when you stop gripping and let yourself be held.This isn’t just a travel story, it’s how you can stop letting fear control your relationship and finally feel the safety and joy you’ve been craving.🌟 Special Podcast Listener Offer: Join the Codependency Alchemy Membership today and get 40% off!→ Click here to claim your discount and join now!💬 Get Community Support: Join our vibrant, supportive chat community and get real-time guidance on your healing journey. → Join the chat✨ Free Shadow Work & Inner Child Guide: Ready to deepen your healing with a step-by-step guide?→ Download my FREE guide🎥 Watch 9+ Powerful Masterclasses: Access practical tools, guided exercises, and transformative teachings to help you heal codependency and build healthier relationships. → Exclusive Masterclass Library✍🏾 From My Journal: Intimate insights and reflections directly from my personal healing journey.→ Read my latest journal entries💎 Explore "The Gems": Browse curated free resources filled with practical wisdom and actionable insights designed to support your growth and healing. → Get your free resources here This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit alyssaaazander.substack.com/subscribe