recovered-ish with chloe cox

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  what my eating disorder cost me — and it wasn't my health | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 37 16.09.2026 49мин

  Episode Description We talk about eating disorders in labs and vitals and weight. But when I look back at mine, the physical stuff was never the thing that woke me up. What actually got me was everything else it took — the dinners I sat through without being there, the party I ran away from, the year in New York where I never once let myself have a bagel, the photo of my nana and my sisters that I'm not in. In this episode I walk through those moments honestly. And then I tell you what each o...
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  stop trying to love your body. get angry instead. | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 36 09.09.2026 37мин

  Episode Description Almost twelve years into recovery and body image is still hard for me sometimes. Pregnancy has made it harder. In this episode I'm getting honest about where I actually am with it — and why "just be grateful for your body" has never been the thing that helps. I walk through a session of my own EMDR therapy, tracing my body image back to a memory from when I was about seven, and what came up that finally shifted something. Spoiler: it wasn't self-love. It was anger — pointe...
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  "I relapsed and part of me likes it" — ED recovery Q&A part 3 | recovered-ish ep. 35 02.09.2026 38мин

  Episode Description Part three — the final installment of the listener Q&A before I head out on maternity leave. This one covers the long game of recovery: whether it's possible after decades, whether you'll always live with it in some capacity, relapse guilt, missing the control the eating disorder gave you, the physical side effects nobody warns you about, and how you actually know when you're recovered. In This Episode: Is recovery possible after decades of an eating disorder?Why hope ...
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  food guilt, triggering friends, and recovering without a team — ED recovery Q&A | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 34 26.08.2026 52мин

  Episode Description Part two of the listener Q&A. You sent in your questions and I'm answering them honestly. This one covers body image and worth, food guilt, figuring out whether a decision is coming from you or the eating disorder, navigating friends who say triggering things, opening up to people you've hidden this from, and what to do if a treatment team isn't accessible to you. In This Episode: How to actually detach your worth from your body — and why de-centering works better than...
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  [REPLAY] does the eating disorder voice ever go away? | the recovered-ish podcast 19.08.2026 43мин

  Episode Description This is a replay of one of the most-listened-to episodes of recovered-ish. I'm taking the week off to prep for maternity leave, so no new episode this week — but this one is worth revisiting, especially if you're new here. One of the most common questions I get — from clients, from Instagram, from people deep in the trenches of recovery — is this: does the eating disorder voice ever actually go away? In this episode, I get honest about my own experience with the ED voice: ...
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  not sick enough, extreme hunger, and finding your why — ED recovery Q&A | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 32 12.08.2026 46мин

  Episode Description You sent in your questions and I'm answering them — honestly. This is part one of a two-part listener Q&A covering some of the most common and most loaded questions I get about eating disorder recovery. We're getting into ambivalence, finding your why, the "not sick enough" myth, comparison, extreme hunger, lost hunger cues, and how to sit with the panic that comes from increasing intake. In This Episode: "I want to want recovery but I don't" — what to do with th...
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  stuck in ED recovery — things to try when nothing is working | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 31 05.08.2026 41мин

  Episode Description If you've been doing all the things — therapy, dietician, meal plan — and still feel like you're spinning your wheels, this episode is for you. In this episode I'm sharing a practical, honest list of things to try when eating disorder recovery feels stuck. These are the gaps I've seen in standard treatment models, the things that have made the biggest difference for my clients and for me, and the approaches that might breathe some new life into your recovery if you're hitt...
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  it's okay to miss your eating disorder | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 30 29.07.2026 36мин

  Episode Description Nobody talks about this part. But it's real, it's common, and it doesn't mean you're doing recovery wrong. In this episode I'm getting into what it actually means when you miss your eating disorder — why it happens, why it makes complete sense, and what to do with that feeling when it shows up. In This Episode: Why missing your eating disorder doesn't mean you want to go backWhat the eating disorder actually gave you — and why that's worth acknowledgingThe grief nobody war...
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  dating in ED recovery — what nobody prepares you for | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 29 22.07.2026 47мин

  Episode Description This is the episode I've been asked for since the beginning of this podcast — and the one I never thought I'd actually record. Dating in eating disorder recovery is complicated in ways nobody really talks about. The body image stuff. The intimacy stuff. The validation-seeking that can look a lot like the disorder wearing a different mask. And eventually finding someone who makes you feel like a whole person. In this episode I'm sharing all of it — including things I've nev...
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  the truth about life after eating disorder recovery | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 28 15.07.2026 17мин

  Episode Description This one was unplanned. My son was in the hospital, life threw a curveball, and I had twenty minutes between sessions to record something real. So that's what this is. In this episode I'm sharing something I've never talked about on the podcast before — and getting honest about what life after recovery actually looks like. Not the highlight reel. The real version, where hard things still happen and you have to figure out how to keep showing up anyway. This is a shorter one...
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  "I'm done with recovery" — what that feeling is really telling you | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 27 08.07.2026 43мин

  Episode Description If you've ever thought "I can't do this anymore" or "I just want my life to stop being about recovery" — this episode is for you. In this episode I'm breaking down the difference between recovery burnout and actually outgrowing your eating disorder, because they can feel almost identical from the inside — and they require completely different responses. One is a sign that recovery is working. The other is a sign you need something different. Knowing which one you're in cha...
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  scales, weight comments, grief, and imposter syndrome — ED recovery Q&A | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 26 01.07.2026 49мин

  Episode Description You sent in your questions and I'm answering them — honestly, not clinically. This is the real-life picture, not the textbook one. In this episode I'm getting into some of the most common and most loaded questions I receive from people in eating disorder recovery — from whether to look at the scale in treatment, to what to say when someone comments on your weight, to how to stop feeling like you're faking it because you actually ate today. In This Episode: Should you look ...
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  unexpected things my eating disorder taught me | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 25 24.06.2026 41мин

  Episode Description It feels strange to say, but it's true: my eating disorder taught me things that have actually added to my life. Not the behaviors. Not the rules. But real, paradoxical lessons that I've carried with me into recovery and into the rest of my life. In this episode I'm sharing a casual list of the unexpected things I learned through my eating disorder — about my body, about planning, about self-compassion, about the power of my own brain. These lessons go way beyond food and ...
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  pregnancy, body changes, and eating disorder recovery — the part nobody talks about | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 24 17.06.2026 42мин

  Episode Description I used to think pregnancy would give me a break from my eating disorder. That the permission to gain weight, to nourish my baby, would make it all feel easy. That's not quite how it went. In this episode I'm getting honest about what body changes in pregnancy actually feel like when you have an eating disorder history — the first trimester appetite chaos, the body dysmorphia on high alert, the awkward in-between phase where nothing fits, and the pressure to be the perfect ...
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  travel in ED recovery — my honest survival guide | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 23 10.06.2026 46мин

  Episode Description Travel is one of the hardest things you can do in eating disorder recovery. New foods, broken routines, different meal times, swimsuits, pictures — it's a lot. And nobody really talks about how to actually get through it. In this episode I'm sharing my honest survival guide for traveling in ED recovery — from what it looked like when I was deep in my disorder on a family trip to Hawaii, to what it looked like this past month traveling to New York and Maryland fully recover...
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  why letting go of your eating disorder feels like losing yourself | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 22 03.06.2026 41мин

  One of the biggest blocks in fully recovering from an eating disorder isn't the food. It's identity. In this episode I'm getting into something I've been circling around for a while but never done a full deep dive into — the way an eating disorder becomes a mask, a persona, a way of being seen in the world. And why letting go of it can feel terrifying even when you desperately want to. This one gets personal. We're going all the way back to a backwards baseball cap, through the eating disorde...
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  does intuitive eating work in eating disorder recovery? | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 21 27.05.2026 48мин

  Episode Description Short answer: yes. Long answer: it's complicated, it takes time, and it definitely doesn't happen the way most people think it does. In this episode I'm getting into my own journey from restriction, to meal plan, to eventually finding something that actually feels like food freedom — and what every stage of that actually looked like. Including the messy middle, the slips, and the moments I started to actually trust my body again. Inspired by a comment questioning why I sti...
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  fear of weight gain, quasi-recovery, and social eating — your questions answered | recovered-ish with chloe cox 20.05.2026 47мин

  You asked, I answered. I get so many DMs and comments with really good recovery questions that deserve more than a quick reply — so this week I'm doing a rapid fire Q&A covering some of the most common and most important ones I've received. We're getting into comparison, quasi-recovery, fear of weight gain, social eating, family dynamics, book recommendations, and more. This one is packed with honest, practical answers — no fluff, no sugarcoating. In This Episode: How to get out of a comp...
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  muffins, missing the ED, and finding hope — reading my ED diaries part two | recovered-ish with chloe cox 13.05.2026 48мин

  Back by popular demand — we're back in the journals. In this episode I'm reading more entries from my eating disorder treatment diaries. These are unfiltered, verbatim entries from residential, PHP, and IOP — the rawest, most honest documentation of what recovery actually looked like from the inside. This one goes to some dark places. There are entries about missing the disorder, about feeling like recovery wasn't worth it, about a muffin that sent me into a complete spiral. But there are als...
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  my ugliest eating disorder thoughts — and what they actually meant | recovered-ish with chloe cox 06.05.2026 43мин

  Episode Description Last week's episode sparked a lot of conversation online. I posted a clip about eating disorder recovery in the ozempic era and the comments absolutely exploded — and it got me thinking about something I've been wanting to talk about for a while. The thoughts I had in my eating disorder that I'm not proud of. The ones that would probably get me canceled if I posted them without context. The ones that felt so real at the time and are so clearly the disorder talking when I l...